Friends? Sahabat? 친구? ともだち？朋友？

Orang cakap
'Sahabat itu jauh lebih berharga dari kekasih sdiri'..
'Sahabat sejati sukar dicari, sekali bertemu, sampai mati berkekalan'
'Bila cinta melukaimu, carilah sahabat yang terbaik untuk mengubati hatimu'

But, that 'friend' now seems very far away from me..
Why?
Don't you love me as ur friend?
Don't you love our friendship?
Don't you love our sweet precious time together?
Don't you love hearing our laughter again?

Thinking of you always....

2 Days of Chinese New Year in Malacca

Isnin, 26 Jan 09

6.00 am

Pagi2 lg mak da kjut ak.. Bgun2 je tgok Abah, Aboy, n my lil bro n sis da siap nak grak balik Melaka.. Beg2 baju dorg da siap susun kat pintu.. Tggal nk bwk masok keta je.. Ak? Huhu.. Of coz la blom.. Baju x packing lg, toiletries sme still dlm toilet lg, x bersusun.. N of coz, blum mandi lg la kn.. Huhu.. Ptotla rse cam xlgkp idup ni.. Huhu..

6.30 am
Ak da hampir siap da.. Siap pki bju yg agak formal (huh? formal on CNY??) n rambut yg agak xsikat.. Mak da jerit2 da suruh ak cpat skit.. "Eyy anak dara aku ni, cepatlah sikit!".. Ak pun grab je sme baju yg ak nmpk, msok dlm beg baju.. Oh yeah, ak jugak bwk laptop n buku statistik (nk revise la kn) so nnt xla membazir mse sgt.. Huhu.. Ak cpat2 msukkan brg ak dlm kete..

7.00 am
Da siap sme, ktorg pun grak la balik mlake.. Gne Highway PLUS.. Spanjang perjlnn, sme ad pangai masing2.. Abah drive dgan mke strict, Mak tido dgan sopan kt tepi, Aboy dgan SMS awek dy, Afiq dgan Portable DVD player dy, Ana lak membute, siap pki comforter lg.. N ak...? Of coz la.. Online!! Download sme lg best2 yg ak jmp.. N ad laa ym skit2.. Cam bese..

10 am +-
Smpi pun mlake.. Ktorg sme g stop kat D'Village Resort dlu.. Abah n Aboy nk g kompemkn reservation bilik.. Then, kitorg sme grak g rumah Mak Koh (my father's eldest sis, aged 65).. Rumah dy atas bukit, n mmg chinese style la.. I like... Huhu.. Angin kt mlake ni cam len skit from KL, kuat je.. Huhu.. So spanjg kt uma Mak Koh, rambut ak asyik ditiup2 angin laa.. Ttbe je ak rse ak lyk jd model Sunsilk or Pantene (hohoh! nnt ak g apply ek..).. Kat sne byk gak la relatives yg da ade.. Ade Auntie Im (my father's sister) ngn anak2 dy: Brian, Hazel, n Danial.. Ade Uncle Hoe n wife dy.. Ade Uncle Sunny.. urm.. Yg len tu xbpe knal la.. rmi sgt family belah Abah.. Tu la Abah, spe suruh jd anak ke 10? Kn da haywire sme family Abah? Huhu.. Sory ek bah.. Wanna know bout food yg ad? Hmm.. Mak Koh tahun ni x msk pun.. Dy suruh jiran2 melayu dy tolong masak.. So as expected.. Nasi impit, rendang ayam, n some mutton curry.. Cam hari rye la plak.. Just bezanya org yg sambut rye ni sme kulit cerah n mata yg ala-ala xnak bkk.. Wakaka.. (Ak mate besar kn??) huhu..Dpt la angpau skit2.. Npe xbyk ek? Xtawu la.. Dorg igt ak da kawin kot!! Hello.. I'm still underage kay.. Hoho.. nk kne tmbh susuk lagi ni.. Wakaka.. N then, ttbe Uncle Hoe approach ak, dy tanye ak UiTM mne.. Ak ckpla in Shah Alam.. Unexpected, rpenye anak dy pun student UiTM Shah Alam gak.. But in seksyen 2 la.. Amik Degree in Business Mngmt.. Ak ckpla ak xknal.. Dy ckp, xpe.. Klu nmpk name "CHU" kt blakg nme sumbudy tu, then he's my cousin.. urm.. Wuteva la uncle.. UiTM Shah Alam tu da cam satu negeri da ak tgok... Igt snang ke nk jmp secara kebetulan? huhu..

1200 pm
Kitorg sme grak from rumah Mak Koh.. Next pit stop is rumah Auntie Siew (again, my father's sister) in tanjung minyak, Melaka.. Journey from rumah Mak Koh smpi rumah Auntie Siew agak jauh la.. Around 45 mins bru smpi.. Ak lak yg mmbte kali ni.. huhu.. pnat taw bgun awl.. Ye la, kat puncak kn bese bgun paling awl pun 6.45.. huhu..

100 pm
Smpi rumah Auntie Siew, ak pun bgun la n turun dr kereta ngn mke sembap.. Natural beauty ktenye.. (Ade sape2 nk mmbantah? Hohoho) Ak pun trus msuk rumah n salam2 ngn sme yg ade kt dlm uma tu.. N pe lg, mkn time!! Huhu.. Ad nasi briyani, ayam msk merah n air oren.. Ak pun konpius npe taun ni dorg wat mknn cmni.. Siyut je.. Ak nk rse Chinese food larh! hoho.. demand lak.. Tgah lpak2 lpas mkn tu, ak kuar la from dat house, nk jln2 jap.. Dr jauh ak nmpk Mak terbongkok2 kat pagar rumah Auntie Siew.. Ak pun tny la, Mak tgah watpe.. Oh, Mak tgah nk petik akar Bakawali, nak buat ubat High Blood dy.. Ak xtawu la Bakawali tu binatg ape, just tau dy cam akr yg pnjg n menggerutu surface dy.. Wuteva.. Mak ckp rse dy pahit, much2 trok then Tongkat Ali..

200 pm
Move from rumah Auntie Siew, now pegi rumah Cik Chik (my grandpa's lil bro, Chu Siam Thye).. X jauh sgt, 15 mins journey je.. Ak dgar mp3, lgu2 yg bru download td.. Smpi je, ak tgok rumah mendiang Baba n Nya.. Xubah byk pun.. Just pokok mangga jd more ripe n big la.. Mak da xsbr2 nk petik buah mgge muda.. Dunno la why elders ske mkn bnde tu? Ak yg slalu ngidam jeruk ni pun xla smpi sggup mkn mgge muda.. Euuu.. Huhu.. Masuk rumah Cik Chik je, cam bese la.. Innocent mode!! Salam org tua.. then trus lpak dpan TV.. tgok concert kt channel WLT.. Best la gak.. Then tgah lepak2, time org tua g petik mngge, ak n Hazel borak2 psl life msg2..(professional mode!!) huhu.. O.. Dy rpenye da 20 thn, amik Mass Comm kt UTAR.. N tukar2 opinion bout course msg2 la.. Huhu.. Best ckp ngn dy ni.. Siap ley ngumpat2 org lg..

300 pm
Mak n Abah decide nk pergi lawat Auntie Lian dkat Old Folks' Home.. Auntie Lian ni 2nd daughter dlm family Abah, aged 63.. Ad 3 anak, tp anak dy xmmpu nk jge Auntie Lian sbb busy dgan study n work stuff.. So hantar mak dorg g Old Folks'.. For me, wuteva it is, dun la send ur mom to Old Folks'.. She took care of us ble kte kecik, rmi plak tu.. Now kte jage la dy balik.. Ttbe je terbit satu jnji to myself n Abah n Mak.. I said, Mak n Abah will never b in any Old Folks'.. Promise!! Ak msuk Old Folks', rse sedih sgt ble tgok byk org tua kt situ, cam tggu family dorg amik dorg balik, sambut new year sme2.. I mean, today's new year.. So xkire la busy mne pun, mst la balik tgok parents.. Ryte?

Waktu journey back from Old Folks', Abah tanya ak..

"Hah, Adik.. Nanti Mak dan Abah dah tua, Adik nak hantar Mak n Abah pegi rumah org tua kat mane?"

"Never la.. Aiyoo.. Paling truk pun Adik upah orang jge kt rumah.. Abah n Mak xkan msok la rumah tu.. Adik janji.."

500 pm
Kitorg balik from Old Folks' n smpi Resort.. Ak unpack n online sbb nk cari info psl Dr. Hatta Azad Khan.. Assignment drama yg kne anta dis Monday.. Dush!! Da borink sgt, xjmp.. Ak chat je on YM dgan Hazu.. Puas ngumpat2.. Maki hamun ssme sdiri.. then ak tdo..

800 pm
Mak da jerit2 suruh bgun.. Nk pegi dinner kt luar.. Ak lak cam mamai je.. G je dinner kt mne tah.. Ak xley tulis byk about dis time sbb Concious Level = 0%.. huhu.. Yg ak igt is ak mkn byk gle mlm tu.. Nasi Goreng Colloseum, Chicken Chop, n Fish n Chip.. dasat kan ak ni?? huhu..


Selasa 27 Jan 09

Ak bgun lmbt arini.. kul 9++.. Mak dah call2 dah suruh bwh Afiq n Ana breakfast n then g swim kt swimming pool.. Mak n Abah kat luar.. G mne tah.. Ak pun ngn xmandi g la bwk dorg g breakfast kt cafe.. Pas mkn, ak lak join dorg swimming.. pnat woo...

Balik bilik, tidur lg! huhu..

Bgun dlm kul 2 n packing barang sbab nk kne check-out dlm kul 3.. Pe lg, bergegas la sbb laundry still dlm bathroom, baju ade yg still kat hanger dlm wardrobe, toiletries lg.. Ak jd cam the Flash la dlm bilik tu.. Siap lari2 n ad tersungkur skali.. Ouch!! Huhu..

Lepas berjaya settle down my things dlm kul 3, ktorg sme g check out n next place kitorg is nk g mkn Mee Soup kt Tengkera.. Kn ktorg x lunch lg.. Huhuh..

Da mkn, dlm kul 4, kitorg g matriks melaka.. Nk jumpe ex roomate ku yg tersyg!! Shahir, Apex, n Nazrul.. Smpi dlm kul 5, tros naik bilik kt C5-2-8.. Shahir bkk pintu dgan mke ala-ala mamai gtu.. Tidur rpenye mmt ni.. hohoh.. bilik ktorg da jd lain sejak ak kua m3x aritu.. smenye jd cam markas tentera nk berperg.. Byk buku.. N ade la notes tmpl2 kt dinding n almari.. Xtawu la nk ckp pe.. In my heart, I said.. "fiuh.. nasib baik ak kua.. klu x mst ak jd mereng skit... Huhu.." Tp camne pun, ak rindu la life m3x.. Eventho only 5 weeks je ak kt situ, but dorg ajar ak byk bnde... Antara benda yg dorg ajar..

1. Iron baju
   
2. Lipat baju
   
3. Basuh baju
   
4. Ampai baju
   
5. Organize almari
   
6. Semayang perfect
   
7. kemas katil lpas tidur
   
8. masak maggi
   
9. camne nak wat nota ringkas
   
10. kiwi kasut
    
11. blaja ssme
    
12. bagi advice n dorongan
    
13. byk lagi.. seyes...
    

I wouldn't have known all this klu xjmp dorg kt m3x.. Mmg dorg ajar ak bnde2 basic yg ak xjmp kt rumah.. Thanx sgt2 kt dorg!! Then, of coz, kul 7pm, grak blik KL!!! thats the end of my journey in Malacca this year.. Urm.. Next year? Maybe? Dunno.. Huhu..

Am I frustrated..?

Malam ni ad klab drama, n mlm ni jugak AFTAS Futsal Night.. N then da ckp ngn Hazu, after Drama nk pegi futsal night tu.. Da janji ngn Ina, Fara, n Syah.. But, it was raining heavily.. So, Hazu xnmpk sgt jln.. Klab drama habis pukul 10.. N ak rse smpt lg nk pegi futsal night tu.. Had a deal with Hazu, but suddenly dia xnak pergi.. Tired, maybe.. Xsalahkan dy laa, sbb we're in the same class, n i know how hectic it was.. Mle2 agak mara coz da jnji, n i thot better jln kaki je.. N find my ways there sbb da jnji ngn Ina.. Tp fikir2 balik, Hazu da la rabun mlm, x hfl jln balik puncak, nervous while driving, takut sbb haunted Cahaya SPK, n etc., so xjd la tgglkn dy.. So just ikut je dy balik puncak.. Journey ktorg frm Kolej Melati to Puncak jd hambar.. Xtawu nk ckp pe sbb frustrated.. But it's his car, nway.. Mle2 mara sbb i think he dun wanna go sbb Mumu's not playing..But frustrated is more than anger.. Xpela, sem 3 pny Futsal Night boleh pergi (as I skipped 1st n 2nd Futsal Night)... Urm.. Ruginya xpegi Futsal Night!!!!!!!!!! Xpela, dun wanna fight with him.. Kan baru je jd kawan baik...?














We're best friends, right?

Why the word 'love' only comes out when you're no longer by my side?

At first I thought it is so easy for us to fade off our feelings for someone we love, especially if we intend to maintain our friendship.. Bila perasaan dah xde, ingatkn boleh la hidup tnang.. But suddenly prasaan tu timbul balik.. Why should u care bout myself? Ure care just made my scar deeper.. Dulu waktu kte slalu bsame, rasa ni xkuat sgt mcm skarg.. But ble kte da jauh, x segroup, xsame arah tuju, prasaan ni jadi kuat.. Smpai ak pun xmmpu nk tpu diri sendiri... Ak rse sakit bila kau crite bout the guy kau minat.. Always terdetik dalam hati, "How, bout me? Xlyk ke ak?".. Npe ko sggup spend feelings ko kt guy yg x hargai ko? Ak ni..? Always think bout u.. Smpi aku lak yg risau psl ko.. Jgnla wat ak mghrp lg.. Even a single short msg like;

"Chu, hati2. Ujanla"

pun buat ak derita sbb tpakse simpan sdiri prasaan yg smpi ble2 xkan terungkap.. Mmg ak tau dat u assume me as ur best frend, n ak xrse pun ak lyk utk ko, but klu dah suke, xley wat cmne.. Tp, pls.. Izinkan aku untuk menyanyangimu smpi bila2.. Biarlah klau x berbls.. Tp sekurg2nya, ak bgga, sbb ak ada menyayangi seseorg, dan org itu ialah kau...............