Birthday present from Abah..

Jeng3X!!

Abah bagi hadiah utk my birthday! (eventho lmbt lg birthday ak)

Mmg ak nk giler mende ni....

Huhu.. best x? LG Ice-cream!! nyum nyum.. TQ abah!! syg abah sgt2!!

He's Just Not That Into You

At first, I was struggling in convincing myself to watch this movie. Some of my friends said it's a very good movie, 7 out of 10, sort of.. And after watching it, I could say that this movie makes me a lot more stronger..

I'd finally reimbursed my mind with a lot of new things, like do not be too overwhelmed in looking for love.. Love comes naturally, so by seeking for love wouldn't actually yield us any benefits in return. Nonetheless, we keep going on and on looking for something that I can say, do not reach it's maturity period yet. Yeah. Why would I think of a person who is completely clueless what is lingering in my mind? Geez.

My favourite quote :

If a guy is treating you like he doesn't give a shit, he genuinely doesn't give a shit... No exceptions..

So, rather than wasting our energy soul thinking of that person, who in return think none of ourselves, we better be relaxed and let the love comes by, through the flow. There's no need to rush. *signing off*

Intersession 1

Eh..? Die dah boleh ketawa la..

Intersession was really hard at first. Hot weather, a great distance between SAAS n college, a room at 6th level, haunted-look bed n closet, n what else..?

N yeah.. A total different class for me..

I wonder why I was placed in B at first.. Nor that I've dreamt of joining any class other than D.

New clique to cling with..

N new issues..

Friends

Time: 0218

Date: May 1, 2009

Venue: Home

Sorry for not uploading these earlier. I don’t know. Suddenly I feel like I need to write something in English. Whenever I feel like killing somebody or crying of something, I’ll try to express my feelings in English. Just that I don’t know to whom I’m gonna talk to, or even look at when my heart feels uneasy.

These days, all the things which happened have taught me lots of important values in a relationship which all human beings need to have; friendship. I finally get to understand that friendship and love is something that we cannot work out for any comparison. Love, is something that we’ll prefer to end when we found out that there’s no way in solving problems. Friendships, on the other hand, will try to assist us in any way in solving complex problems.

Sometimes, I can’t even understand why, when and how love can destroy friendships. During this semester alone, I’ve been destroying my own friendships twice just for one reason; unrequited love. Love will be much painful if it is unrequited – everybody knows that. Even though sometimes we know that by doing love confessions, it may cause a sense of ‘awkwardness’ between two parties: the one who confessed and the one who received the confession.

In highlights, there are only two end situations after friends fail to be lovers.

- They feel extremely awkward and decide to not talk to each other comfortably. Slowly, the friendship will start to fade off.

- They try to forget everything and assume that the confession never happens. They will end up showing hypocrisy in their eyes and the hypocrisy will fade. They are back as friends again.

The second one, however, deals with great pain and triumph. That’s why the number one, on the other hand, happens in major cases.

As for me, I ended up being in the first case. Yup, sometimes I miss her damn much. I even regret telling her about my feelings. And after seeing what have happened, I put a thought of having her as my friend again deep inside me. The progress? 0%. That’s all I can say. I feel so pathetic of myself.

I just wanna say something to her, only one thing : ‘It’s okay that you’ve rejected me, but please don’t stay away from me. It only made this scar deeper. It’s my fault, I know; but at least give me some space fixing it back.’